Yup. 2 days in a row.

1. I was able to add pictures

Clearly I am still trying to figure it out.  These photos are not going to be relevant to the 5 for today BUT at least I have photos!  AND grateful for my time at work to figure it all out.

2. Dance Party

Last night after dinner we turned up the music and had a dance party. Well actually Cameron and Jack danced.  Owen was pouting in his room but then joined eventually.  I was the DJ.  Mike videotaped.  Basically - it was a blast.

3. Hello Fresh

A few weeks ago dinner preparation and then the actual dinner SUCKED.  Afterwards I headed to yoga at the gym.  Ironically there was a lady there selling Hello Fresh. I took this as a sign from God that I needed help in the kitchen.  Last night Mike made burgers while I watched him.  It was simple, yummy and worth the money. 

4. Extra time

I have some extra time at work today.  I am not sure what I am going to do yet.  I might go home and read or watch Netflix, maybe run errands (aka browse Target), probably will not be hitting up the gym because i am too lazy, the downtown library without kids actually sounds heavenly, or .  I am grateful for a few extra hours to just BE.   

5. Rain

I think that it is supposed to rain today - which means I don't have to water the garden.  AND Mike did the watering yesterday!  

short and sweet.

I was not able to get my pictures this morning and I am tired of the struggle so I decided to just write out a quick 5.


1. The sunrise
It was a pretty stunning, 360 degree sunrise this morning.  I legit sat in my car and took a few extra moments to enjoy before walking into work.


2. Baseball
Last night was Jack's first t-ball game.  He was in heaven.  The boys are still figuring out kid pitch which is a HUGE change.  Their games are a little painful but they are still having fun which is all the matters.


3. Easter
We had a great day on Sunday.  We played outside all day.  It was beautiful.  I finally worked on the garden AND we hit up the park.  It was refreshing and just what I needed.


4. Mom-Pee
Mom-Pee is Jack's nickname for me.  I know it is something that I am going to forget later since he doesn't do it all the time.  But when he does, it makes me smile.


5.  Sarah Uminski
She was in the office for a quick minute today.  So grateful for her and her friendship.

3:13 PM

1. Easy week at work
Sometimes that can be great - sometimes it can be miserably slow.  I am going to look at this one with gratitude.  I was able to work out almost every day during the week AND I accomplished all of my tasks.


2.Good service at Bdubs
Last night we went to a different Bdubs.  Thank God.  We have a TON of gift cards and I hated going to the Castleton location.  Last night we had great service, we gave a great tip and it was great to spend time together.


3. The love
Last month on our first night in Banff we tried to recreate our first night in Chicago, 6 years ago.  All I can say is WOW. I had no idea how different these two photos look.  I am not going to lie - i am actually a bit shocked.  We have experienced so much life over these past few years.  We are at comfortable that I never imagined possible.  Don't get me wrong -- he still makes my blood boild sometimes.  But boy,  I am so grateful.  ALSO - Clearly I have learned how to take a better picture.  In the left I was actually 20 pounds lighter!!!

4. The weekend

Would it really be a Friday if  I didn't mention that I was grateful for the weekend?

5. Me Before You

In the past week I finished another book series.  Though I really enjoyed most of the story line (especially the first book) I am excited for the next three books that hit my shelf last night.  YUP- 3 of my books on hold from Overdrive all became available last night.  If that isn't exciting...I'm not sure what is!

6. SBJ

He is growing up rather quickly.  It's a bit scary.  My 4 year old can count to 100 without error, has the most insane memory AND is so stinking sweet I can't stand it.  So grateful for this little man in my life.



it worked

Oh my gosh.  I think that I finally figured this out.  It sure has taken me awhile but I am still avoiding downloading all of my desired pictures onto a desktop.

It has been a few weeks.  A lot of fabulous this have happened.

1. Robyn and Tony's wedding

We had such a great time at their wedding.  I have learned to drink water between all of my drinks AND I refused to partake in shots.  HOLY MOLY was it fun to dance, meet new people and have a great night.  Also....I was able to find a new dress and shoes the day before during my lunch break.  And possibly the most important thing --I curled my hair - BY MY SELF.  Yup, you read that correctly - I am a real adult.

We went out downtown and didn't get home to bed until 430am!!

2. Cameron's Play

Cameron has found his joy and it is so fun to watch him thrive.  I am so grateful that he has found something that he loves.  I'm also grateful that we have the money to support him. I think back to when I was a single mom SCRAPING to get by.  I would not even imagined how to pay for extra activities.  We are a lucky bunch indeed. 

Jack is OBSESSED.  He would of gone to every performance if he was able. 

3. The funk
I am grateful that I am a older, wiser and a bit more in tune with my emotions.  For the past few weeks....I think it was literally on the way back from Banff, I started to be inside my own head.  I am not sure how to explain it more.  I felt unhealthy, out of sorts and like something needed to change.  Last Thursday Mike and I went to Bleaker Street and made a plan.  Basically I needed to stop bitching and get to the gym, I needed to eat a bit more salad AND be graceful with myself.  Grateful that I have him on my team to get me out of my own head.  ALSO - grateful that I am rarely in a valley. 


4. Flexible schedule
I complain a lot about being bored at work.  This week I started to change things up.  Yesterday I left and worked out, today I came in late, tomorrow I plan on leaving again.  Hopefully this will break up my day more AND I will accomplish my health goals.


5. Our neighbors
This weekend the boys smoked meat and then we pulled tables into the street and all ate dinner together.  Last week Rhonda and Michael made dinner and we sat and joined them while the kids ran and played around us.  We are pretty lucky.  Sometimes I just want to go and hide inside my house BUT super grateful that my kids always have friends who are outside playing.

Though he is obsessed with his brothers -- he loves the time he is alone too.

the past

This might be my last post with pictures for awhile and this one is a tad different than most.  This week at work I have had a LOT of time on my hands.  So while semi-trying to figure out how to get photos to my blog I found a link to old phone photos.  Oh wow.   This post doesn't have any photos of the boys.  None.  Instead, these are some of the screen shots and the memes that I had from YEARS ago.  Like a previous, buried life, years ago.  I had so many pictures of songs and screen shots from texts - it has been nuts to go through some of the memories.  So this will be another post of random ass photos and captions. 

ALSO - I am still going to figure this blog thing out.  I enjoy reading about the past two much to stop.  SOOOOO....if you are reading this and you can help me with my photo issue - please reach out.



I understand why I saved this photo.  I still feel the same.

Holy Fuck.  Can I please be in shape again. I am missing my skinny life.

still holds true today.

Oh. my. goodness.  I LOVE Celia.  I had to send her a copy of this picture too.  oh....the days of working on the floor.

Rouzer - I feel like we can relate to this PERFECTLY.



One of my favorites and made me smile when I reread it all of these years later.

Does this even need a caption?

One of the many....MANY....songs that I had in my photos. 

I am not really sure how I feel about this one anymore.  In the past few years I have been through a lot of loss that has caused a lot of pain.  Sometimes numbing the pain is the thing to do in order to get some time between you and the loss.

After the week that I have had I could not think of something better to say.  Clearly things change but my guardian angel is still fucked up.

I just needed to add more pictures so I don't have to remind myself to get my shit together.

Um hello....I LOVED that mirror.  I eyed it forever at Target until it went on sale.  And look at my old bathroom in the background.

Why do I save stuff like this?!  LOL

I need this one today....to get my ass back into the GYM.



This was my favorite Halloween.  AND what a great picture of Erin.

I wish I had this print in my hands.

Please note my trusty laptop to the left.  Ohhh....I loved having vodka and juice to get me through sometimes.  Don't judge.  I was a single mom with twins.



Trying to figure it all out.  I never did.  I just moved from one day to the next....but maybe I was self aware that I was completely lost.