This weekend has been rough for me. Mike is in Denver with his brother and I have been home with the kids. Don't get me wrong, I can completely do this a few days…I use to do it all the time….BUT holy it is hard. It quickly reminds me how much he does for me and the family. I am having an extra hard time because as of Friday we found out the Mike's job changed a bit and now he will be traveling essentially ALL THE TIME. I have been trying hard to put my big girl pants on and figure out my new routine, but it has been difficult. I can feel my feet dragging and my mind freaking out. I feel that all coping mechanisms are gone and I could shed a tear at any moment. Hopefully this transition will be easy and short lived. Hopefully in the next few days I can muster up the courage that I can not seem to find. But this weekend, and these past few days, have not been my brightest moments.
In moments like these I find it works well to sit down and reflect on the things that make me grateful. Hoping that this break in my day helps to calm my soul.
1. Decorations are DONE
The tree is up and the decorations are in place. Finally. Though the boxes are just in the garage and not all the way in the attic, they are still out of my every moment vision. The boys are getting super excited for Christmas. Especially Cameron. He is in the giving spirit.
2. Yogurt
Almost every morning I have a greek yogurt. I have been doing this for awhile and I don't see the habit changing anytime soon. They have so much protein that they keep me full. PLUS they have great flavors and are only $1 each. The boys love them too. Makes things super easy.
3. Annual Girls Christmas Party
Last night was Shelby's annual Christmas party. It felt great to get out of the house and talk to adults. I haven't seen a lot of those women in months and it was good to catch up.
4. My parents
They watched the boys last night and then my dad is watching them today for my baby shower. GRATEFUL for their help. The boys love when they are with grandma and grandpa and it makes my life a thousand times easier.
5. Rouzer
This was a picture I snapped at 5 am. I could not get comfortable in bed because somehow I had these two crazies. I needed to document it because I have NEVER had both boys in my bed. Owen woke up a little after midnight with a headache and with no tylenol in the house and not much relief he wasn't able to fall back asleep. He was invited into my bed. Around 4 am Cameron wanderers out and realized that he was alone in his room. He started crying that he is too lonely so he was added into the bunch. It basically went downhill from there. I don't know how parents do this every night. Needless to say me and my prego belly got LITTLE sleep. (Which might account for my lack of coping mechanisms today.)
This is a sick picture of the two of us but I had to add and document it somewhere. Grateful that we are doing this pregnancy together. It makes everything much more tolerable. We are 10 days apart and I am officially 31 weeks!
Making our gingerbread house yesterday.
Kelly and Matt drove through town on Friday night and we met them for a quick ice cream. They gave us 3 huge bags of baby boys clothes. Super excited to sit down and look through them.
He is excited for Christmas…to say the least. He has been wanting to make presents for everyone. I finally put a stop tp it a few house ago. He was finding stuff around the house and then wanting to wrap it up. Last night he gave my mom a used sheet of stickers and he gave my dad a comic book. Today he gave Owen a broken walkie talkie. I was just rolling with it a first because it is sweet and makes him happy. But now that we have wrapped gifts for lots of people under the tree, with all the expensive paper, it had to end.
They are still in the pajamas that I put them in on Friday night. It is Sunday at 1040am.
Uh…it's only 1040….wha wha wha….back to chores.
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