Momma Mode
I am not sure how to go about this post but there is something that I need to write out. Let's be honest...there are a LOT of things that I would like to write out but I feel pretty safe that this one is safe in this domain. This afternoon we went to Ezra's first birthday party. It was actually better than I thought that it would be and the boys and I had a lot of fun. (More on that later in The Five).
So we were at the party and I walk outside to check on the boys and I can hear Owen yelling at Ethan and some other kid to "STOP IT." It was his angry voice. He was upset. Immediately I reacted. But here is why....#1-- Owen tries to please. Granted I am pushing the kids this weekend with ALL play, little rest BUT Owen wants to have friends. He works at it. #2 -- Ethan is rough. He has been a bully since forever. We haven't played with him for a minute (or like a billion minutes) but a lot of times those things don't die. If you are a bully, you are allowed to be a bully, a few years later...you are usually still a bully. #3 Cameron verified that Owen was not being mean to them. That Owen didn't start it. ......... all of that (well #3 came later)..... was in my head when I just went into the "momma mode." I stuck up for Owen. I told Ethan essential to back the F off. Don't worry -- in not so many words BUT I put myself to the Mitchell that I was 3 years ago. THAT was my mistake.
You see -- 3 years ago Tanya potty trained the boys while I disciplined hers. And in that moment, I was in her back yard just doing our every day life. That's not the way it is anymore. I don't see Tanya and we don't see Ethan -- we are just kids at a party playing and we all know each other from the past. I should of protected my child but at the same time kept my self in check.
Anyways -- momma mode came out. I fiercely love these boys and I love Ethan. I actually miss the days of spin in the morning and playdates in the afternoon. BUT -- that isn't how it is. We just really are not that close.
Also -- I apologized to all. I am sure that I am making this sound worse than it is -- but mess with my kids ....while I am around....and holy hell.... shit will hit. the. fan.
That's it--just sitting heavy on my heart tonight. I reacted quickly and apologized quickly. Still feeling uneasy.
1. Lunch at Scottys
Today we went to lunch at Scotty's Brewhouse because we have lots of gift cards AND kids eat free on Sunday. They also had face painting for free. We were in heaven. All three boys did fabulous and it was nice to get out of the house and not have to plan another meal. Clearly we like things simple around here.
After lunch I went to the library with the boys while Mike shot with Luke. Cameron decided that he wanted to carry around a stuffed animal while searching for books. Eventually he had two animals in his arms. I am glad that we have a new set of books to read at night. We checked out over 40 books today!
To get it out of the way --It was a great party. It was wonderful, but that is not why I am grateful. I am grateful that Shelby and I survived this year together. I feel like a brand new mom and though some of these things are slightly familiar to me...I am so so lucky that I have Shelby to walk along this crazy path. (yes...and my husband too...but girlfriends are just different).... I am still in shock that our boys are a year old. She is such a good mom and an amazing friend and I find myself extremely grateful that her and her family is in my life. Cheers!! (Obv)
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| Looking at these pictures I STILL can not get over Ezra's haircut |
I am a strong believer that "It takes a village to raise a child." Today we witnessed that village first hand. Jack did not take his nap this afternoon. He was super tired (though never cranky). All of my friends carried him around and kept him occupied. We had a break. They held him, loved on him, and shared in our joy. We stepped back and just stood there. It was wonderful.
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| I walked in on Jordan and Kara giving him a tattoo. Jack loved it. |
As I have mentioned in a previous post...this weekend was busy. We jumped from one thing to the next and then we played outside in the sun whenever possible. I am sure all three boys were asleep tonight within minutes. After I finish typing this out I am headed there myself. It will be heavenly and I am excited.
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