I absolutely love my format of this blog -- I think that when I sit down to write it helps me to regroup, refocus, and continue to be positive. That being said, a lot of my life doesn't hit the blog. I try to write some of my failures into these five highlights but usually the messy stays at the sideline. And goodness knows, I carry a lot of messy.
So tonight, I am going to try and highlight some of the FAIL that is happening -- yet obviously put it into the format of the things that make me happy.
1. I am OFF Facebook.
Yup -- I am officially off Facebook and I have absolutely no plan to get back on. Right now my news feed is filled to the brim of people trying to sell me something. It's boring, underwhelming and a complete waste of my time. It is odd, embarrassing and miserable that I am able to look at Facebook ALL. THE. TIME. with absolutely NOTHING going on. I find myself being noisy, comparing my life to others and trying to show off. I am grateful that Facebook is out of my life.
2. Jack didn't watch Mickey Mouse tonight
So a few months ago Mike started letting Jack watch Mickey Mouse. I would be surprised if this didn't make the blog at the time. It all started innocently with a desire to get us to Disney (Yes--I created a conspiracy theory) -- and immediately he was hooked. Anyways, fast forward a few months later and here we are ...our 19 month old can sit and watch TV for HOURS if we let him. And I would say a safe bet is that we have probably let him. Holy hell this is embarrassing to type out but it's the truth. Mickey Mouse is sort of like my own personal crack. I am able to turn the TV on and get shit done. Or get nothing done. I am able to just rest and breathe. Now -- all of these words can be conflicting -- I completely agree with resting/breathing/surviving life -- BUT I have used the TV as a terrible crutch to parent my child. With Jack I feel like I am sort of on the fail side of parenting.
Tonight --- I would not let him watch Mickey. Though he still refused to eat dinner (and I am sure he went to bed starving) -- we did all of the things that I love about being his mom. We read books, played outside, and took walks with Nash. Grateful that I am kicking this addiction in the ass. ******Tomorrow morning he will be watching Mickey -- but only one episode -- I don't think the rest of the house can deal with his screaming at 6 am.*****
3. I know that working out makes you feel SO.MUCH.BETTER
I know this because this used to be part of ME. It isn't so much anymore....at all. I am grateful that I absolutely, 100% know this truth. I am completely failing at this in my life right now and I have been failing at this for a few years. I hope to somehow get back into the routine of things when I start my new job.
Ok....so that's enough for now. See...it doesn't even feel right to highlight the bad. It's there -- of course it's there. We all have our demons and we all have our hiccups. I think in order to be successful in life it's necessary to focus on the good -- to highlight the accomplishments. Defeats are going to happen, and misery at times will get the best of us at times. I am a strong believer, especially in the past two years, in resilience. And the benefit and importance of this trait. I believe that resilience is built on daily positivity and grace. - how we live life every single day that matters.
**I need to say -- nothing dramatic has happened. Nothing at all. I think that it is just important to write out to my kids who might one day be reading this journal -- BE POSITIVE. Look at the good in things, look at the good in people, expect the positive outcome, and create your life to be WONDERFUL to live in.
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