The Grateful Life: It WORKED

AHHHH it worked! I continue to try and get these pictures to cross over and it always just kept thinking and thinking. This morning I decided to try again but also committed that I would sit down and write if they never crossed. Quickly..tons of pictures shared and I am able to post. My mind has been going crazy the past few days. I have been in a pretty low place of grief and loss. I am struggling as I navigate the next path in my life with more moments seeming overwhelming versus exciting and new. It's been hard. A hard that I haven't experienced in a long time...maybe ever. My goal is to get to the other side in one piece AND to have a family that is filled with laughter, love and fun. I don't want my kids to feel that their foundation is cracked, broken or shifted. I want them to feel filled to the brim with confidence in themselves and enjoy the heck out of this life. The other goal is to HAVE A GOAL. I am such a goal oriented person I think that lack of structure and determination is not on my side. Every goal that I think about - doubts or hesitation start to creep in. It's strange. I want to commit to nothing.

Well here are a few quick daily goals I made today. Workout everyday. It doesn't have to be hard but it has to be something. Do the blog. (I know it's not a SMART goal. ...but it's still on my list.)

I am doing my gratitude in captions today.

Lunch with Amy and Laura this week. I have been in a full, complete funk so it was good to get out of the house.

Running club with my two competitive children. LOVE this time with them. I go and pick Jack up from daycare early and ruin his nap but it has been so great to have him there and he loves it.

My husband. This man took SUCH GOOD CARE OF ME on Saturday. I was low. All day. He carried all of the weight. He made me so proud to be his wife. We were SUPER, insanely drunk. This was actually the best picture from my phone that night.

It has been months that I felt lonely and sad. Lost. Saturday evening was the first time in months that I actually felt a sense of peace and happy. Though she is not pictured here, Shelby made sure that the celebration was perfect. Absolutely perfect. I am so grateful for her and her friendship.

We had all the cousins over on Friday night to celebrate Grandpa. I don't think that the night could of gone any better. We played Left Right Center, had pizza and some SERIOUS games of capture the flag. It was so much fun.

Date day with the boys consisted of a perfect afternoon at Top Golf last Friday since they didn't have school.

Watching the boys play sports this year has been significantly better. I agree with Owen that sometimes it's exhausting but sports have changed FOR SURE.

I am sure that this was just another night of being together. Since I don't work I want to stay up late. Ohhh and I am wearing my favorite shirt that I usually wear three days in a row. Yes - embarrassing but real.

I FINALLY met Claire. It was so nice to spend time in North Carolina. I love catching up with Lauren and wish we lived closer. PLUS - I am obsessed with their new house.

SPA day. It was nice to just sit and relax all day. Just BE. The spa was beautiful and I loved the company.

Pat flew me first class. Yes - Spoiled AF.

We take walks with Jack sometimes at night so he will sleep. He quickly convinces me to run the entire time so I let him.

Owen's project. He was proud and worked VERY hard with lots of boxes and tape.

This was Cameron's shrimp BEFORE the eyes. He did his at Jack's soccer game and then asked one neighbor for sting and the other one for google eyes. Resourceful. Yes - I am proud that he not only asked for help but he MADE IT HAPPEN. Cheers to that.

Jack kept asking his coach to sit out this morning. When I questioned him about it he said, "this is how you play soccer." Note that he is sitting on his ball watching the wrong game.

I have gone through a million, trillion pictures and old memories. This was one of my favorites.

Atticus is HERE. It has been so much fun to hold him but then pass him right back off and complete my day. I'll admit - he is SO stinking cute and at the same time does not make me want another baby. AT ALL.

Always touching his penis. Always.

How can you not be grateful for neighbors who have kids the same age. Oh i would of given a LOT for this when the twins were little. We are super lucky.

Bruce is a fucking BEAST when it comes to garage sales. I might hire him for my next sale.

A night away with the Gurchiek family was fun but also lonely. It made me miss my own parents and our own lake house. Grateful that they included me and that the boys had a blast.