Last Friday I struggled to post because I could not appropriately write out how I was feeling. I still can't but since it has been almost a week I decided to suck it up and post.
Last week I got an email from Owen's teacher that he was having a problem with hitting and kicking. First the email sort of put me over the edge -- and though I didn't agree with the teacher, I knew that Owen needed a serious talking and some major privileges taken away.
I also needed to figure out what was going on. This is my child who loves to please. He follows the rules and he gets upset when others don't. I felt that the task at hand to figure this all out was a tall order. I under estimated Owen. After getting through the actual admission that he was in trouble -- he was able to articulate to me almost every single thing. He included how he was feeling and why he didn't think that he should get in trouble. **Kids are only allowed to tell on each other after the second offense and he only did it once** Though lots of his logic was 6 year old logic -- it still all worked out.
After getting the twins to bed, while rocking Jack to sleep, I broke down. I didn't know if I handled it right. He went to bed feeling ok but I was still questioning everything -- was I too hard on him? was I not hard enough? He is struggling with friends? Should I volunteer in the classroom more? The overwhelming reality of being a mom hit hard.
I am pleased to say that though my heart still hurt the next few days, it all worked out. Right before we talked with Owen this full rainbow was outside our back door. It is a small reminder to slow down and enjoy.
2. One child weekend
Going from three children down to one makes things a tad bit easier. This weekend the boys were at Greg's for a few nights and we were able to relax, catch up on some cleaning, and actually sit down for the entire meal. On Saturday night we made Shepard's Pie which turned out really good. We also drank our last bottle from Tuscany. It was amazing.
Being able to spend the day with Jack made me wish I stayed at home. I know that he is safe at Amber's BUT I also miss spending all of those lazy days with him. He just crawled back and forth from his room to the living room -- I followed. He is constant and non stop but he is still pretty fabulous.
I was able to clean out the boys art & craft area. If I didn't -- we would be overflowing with papers. The boys don't throw anything away! I was also able to clean the oven this weekend and vacuum/sweep all of the rooms. It doesn't sound like a lot because it really isn't BUT the house is in much better shape and it makes me happy. This means we will have a clean house when we get back from vacation.
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| This was one of the pictures that I found that Cameron colored for Greg so I sent them a picture. On the back it said "For Papa" so Cameron had written out daddy in Spanish. |
This weekend jack was standing up at the gate looking at Nash. After a bit of searching I found this picture of Cameron and Owen standing up and looking at Sydney and Haley. It makes me a bit sad to think that Jack will quickly grow like these two did.
I love this picture of the twins. Owen looks sooooo little and I love how his hand is on Cameron's shoulder.
6. Spin
I have not worked out in a LONG time. I good guess would at least be a full month. One of my coworkers started going to spin at the Fort Ben YMCA. I am going to try it out this morning. I did a quick map quest and realized that it is the exact distance from my house as the Jordan Y. Keep your fingers crossed that this spin class is much better than the other. Next week I am going to try the one that Michelle attended but until then...this 915 class will have to do.
7. The upcoming trip
In 24 hours the 5 of us will be on the road to NYC. I haven't even pulled out the suitcases, the boys are still in Chicago (and Owen has been puking all night), Mike is working all day, and I still have at least two loads of laundry to start and two that need to be folded. I am excited to take the boys to NYC to see the parade and spend time with family. It will all happen eventually.....right??!! I guess I should get started.
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